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Steven Caulker has a tale to tell and, as hard as it is to hear, it is Authentic David Wright Youth Jersey best simply to listen. His stream of consciousness veers from scoring on his England debut less than five years ago and the thrill at potential being realised to the horrific mental health issues that have almost ended it all in the period since. A player who, from the outside, appeared blessed with talent and opportunity speaks of desperate anxiety and self-loathing.He contemplated killing himself in his darkest moments with his path one of self-destruction. Attempts at escapism cost him hundreds of thousands of pounds, wages frittered away in casinos. Then came the drinking aimed at numbing the pain. The 25-year-old finds himself recalling http://www.authenticnewyorkmets.com/Dwight-Gooden-Jersey the times spent in custody watching CCTV footage of his misdemeanours, his lawyer at his side, and not recognising the vile person on the screen.Football is still coming to terms with mental illness and Caulker, an international and a last lingering reminder at Queens Park Rangers of financially misguided days as a Premier League club, has been an easy target. He is not seeking to make excuses or win sympathy. These are details he finds painful to recount. “I’ve sat here for years hating myself and never understood why I couldn’t just be like everyone else,” he says. “This year was almost the end. I felt for large periods there was no light at the end of the tunnel.” And yet he has not placed a bet since December, or touched alcohol since early March. The healing process that can restore him to the top level is well under way, with this interview, one he sought out, potentially another step on the road to recovery.“Last weekend they justified why they’re the best team in the world but I definitely believe, with the guys we’ve got and the way they’ve been speaking this past week, that everybody’s got the perfect attitude to take into this Adidas Ivan Provorov Jersey game. We have got one chance. It’s like knockout rugby and hopefully that brings the best out of the guys. They are used to that pressure, which is similar to the Six Nations with a lot of must-win games.”Warburton also made clear the touring squad are keen to help ensure Lions tours continue long into the future. “Without sounding too strong, I’d be devastated if the Lions was ever lost. I don’t understand the politics and the finances of it but from the playing point of view it’s absolutely amazing and the players all think the same. The motivational levels are going to be http://www.authenticphiladelphiaflyers.com/authentic-ivan-provorov-jersey extremely high.”Steve Hansen, the All Blacks coach, has criticised the New Zealand Herald for publishing a cartoon portraying his Lions counterpart, Warren Gatland, as a clown. “To ridicule someone is not right. It’s a bit disappointing, really,” Hansen said.“The last Test was a beauty and, with a little bit more luck, they could have easily won. We have to front up on Saturday. It’s OK doing it once; we have to do it again.”A little under a year ago Caulker had spoken to the Guardian about a “life-changing” week spent in Sierra Leone, of humbling yet inspiring charity work with ActionAid that had provided him with a sense of perspective. He returned to be galvanised under Jimmy Floyd Hasselbaink at Loftus Road and, having spent the previous season on loan at Southampton and Liverpool – unfulfilling stints which fuelled his latent insecurities – was ready to give his all. Early season performances against Leeds and Cardiff suggested confidence had been restored, reward for a summer of incessant fitness work.The trigger that would send him spiralling to rock bottom would be injury. He tore his groin at Barnsley and played in pain for weeks, dreading a spell back in rehabilitation, before succumbing to an associated hip complaint. “I owed it to QPR to try,” he says, “but I was naive thinking I could still perform with the tear.” He has not played since last October, with the period marked by personal turmoil and, only of late, revival. Talking publicly, he suggested, may point younger players towards seeking help if they find themselves treading the same route, or experiencing the same sense of desertion, in a brutal industry. The real hope is the exercise, as brave as it is, may ultimately prove more cathartic for Caulker himself.


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